H Y P H E Y

Hi

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 04:21:01 GMT

so I'm not dead

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 12:43:44 GMT

I'm glad you're home april..

I think the hat looks better on you ape...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 19:35:35 GMT

aren't we pretty

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excuse me.

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new pics

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 19:31:02 GMT

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for all of you.. but mostly you

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 00:06:25 GMT

updating
I feel as though the stars have affected behavior in people here lately.. and how hurtful people have been.. even myself. I feel numb and I haven't thought to say much.. I have friends angry at me.. and I've hurt new love in my life. I wish people would tell me what I've done.. I haven't talked or felt in so long.. I can't even think of what I could've done.. there's something about this entire day that just makes my heart feel swollen.. and empty.

.. be reasonable.. at least be sure of what you've heard before hurting those who love you

I'm going to go sleep.. and listen to ryan adams to contribute to my pinkest organ

just for my amusement..maybe you should fill this out

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 05:46:26 GMT

I have a strange feeling I've done this one before..but Ifound it and decided to use it anyway

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?(I wasn't sure I should leave this naughty on in)lol..but i did
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression of me?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Sea sick green is my color for tonight

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 03:41:57 GMT

(remember how it felt the first time you noticed someone else's heart beating other than your's?)

whenever i feel completely drained & depressed, i go through sickening cycle where i lay on the floor for hours contemplating whether or not i should get up and do something. bake some muffins, drink some milk, plant a new floral bulb in the garden, paint . . ... anything, i should really get off the ground & teach my limbs to move again.

i can say it has taken me more than three months but i am completely not bitter about my past relationships. & think i am more drained than anything. emotionally drained, but the funny part is that i have so much emotion left over. it's ridiculous to feel this much when you don't seem to have anything left. i know i am growing. really slow, but i am growing & learning to adapt to other humanly contact & their emotions too. i become real slow about everything when i am beginning to understand and care about someone else's feelings.

i lit some blue candles last night around the bathtub & meditated heavily on getting my emotions to be constant for more than a day. i feel like i am on a boat, moving up as fast as i am falling down. all of this is leaving me sick and crying. i want to use the money I have to travel. i want to pack a suitcase & travel, just to get out of my mind's state. i want to feel safe & warm. i want be able to sail my own boat. i dont want boy anxiety, i dont want to feel locked behind bars.
i used to have this reoccuring dreams where i am floating away from everything. i dont have those anymore. i am thinking it's a sign for me to get up & start living.

last entry

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 14:23:39 GMT

enhale swallowed air. it has made it's nest and settled. for now, i've forced myself to be content with whatever path i'm led to follow. satisfied with which cloud my feet have landed on. i cannot say that plenty is enough. because i know not how much can be held. and this feeling could go on forever. but how far till it reaches lastly? or does it eternally bloom till blossuming has seeked full potential. and in the back of my head, i still anazlye too much. too many daydreams. too many wishes. too many crossed fingers. too many fingernails ripped in anticipation of questions. i assume not bad, for negativity can only attach itself to those afraid of the dark. so i shall hunt light. for at every end of every good thing is beauty. i cannot continue awaiting fault. i shouldn't predict failure. will you hold my thoughts captive and send me on my way? sudden or never shamed, i prevail time as an aquantince and awaken in eclipse. lost, is my doubt. found, is my hope. blind for the lust. deaf for the feeling. i need pushed. i yearn education. asleep in the deepest of my heart provoking thrill.

wave your hand before my face. tell me if it's okay to breathe.

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 02:37:21 GMT

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Erika is your soulmate.

You truly love April.

You consider Julian your true friend.

You know that Chris is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Miranda for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Ashley is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Mat is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Randell is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Randell changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Jack is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Jack has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

fifty years later

Sun, 29 May 2005 03:31:04 GMT

I just made these amazing earrings..and necklace..
I think their color makes a mood for me I've never felt before.. I love you all

Thu, 26 May 2005 05:11:48 GMT

Everything's so crazy right now. I feel very confused about who I am again.. and I thought I'd already had that firgured out, but I guess it's another part of growing up. I feel really sick to my stomach to see some things I've seen tonight.. but I don't care.. maybe I never will.

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Mon, 23 May 2005 13:23:11 GMT

i want a new something for a window to the thoughts I have of you...

Sun, 22 May 2005 19:45:07 GMT

Your True Birth Month Is June

Fussy

Abiding

Friendly

Stubborn

Talkative

Sensitive

Executive

Hesitating

Easily hurt

Active mind

Easily bored

Daydreamer

Loves to joke

Tends to delay

Temperamental

Brand conscious

Loves to dress up

Having lots of ideas

Good debating skills

Funny and humorous

Thinks far with vision

Prone to getting colds

Polite and soft-spoken

Able to show character

Seldom show emotions

Knows how to make friends

Easily influenced by kindness

Takes time to recover when hurt

Choosy and always wants the best

Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

What's Your True Birth Month?

A real update

Fri, 20 May 2005 23:40:36 GMT

SO my life has been really busy,busy,busy here lately.. and I'm excited about so many things. Fisrt off.. I went to Sundown in the City last night, and it was okay.. the music was interesting.. but the best part was I met a very attractive young man.. he fascinates me. From there we went to the New City Cafe and played some chess.. that place is very neat, and allt he people that work there are volunteers. Aftwards.. April and I went to eat at IHOP..yummy.
It seemed to be a pretty good night.

Lately my love life has been crazy.. and I haven't made my decision on what to do.. him or him or him or him? lol j/k

I started playing violin a few weeks ago and I felt confident to finally tell
someone.. maybe I'll play for 'you' sometime..

i'm off.. and I'll hopefully update again soon before I leave..

Fri, 20 May 2005 23:27:00 GMT

i feel loved.

Tue, 17 May 2005 05:45:27 GMT

i'm glad i'm the person that i am now.
it keeps me from getting hurt. i never fully trust anyone,
even if i do give them some control of my emotions,
i always know the consequences, and i never expect to be too far off.
and when i'm disappointed, i'm prepared to take it. people have been
coming and going from my life recently, so quickly that i forget they were even there. once they prove themselves as morons, they don't exist to me anymore.
i fool people by making them think they've fooled me, so i can continue an investigation of a person's behavior. am i crazy? i don't know. i'm absolutely fascinated by some individuals' confidence level and arrogance, and how much they think they can actually get away with, without being spotted. yet has it to happen that any one person i study stops doing what is obviously hurtful to someone else by their own will. it's all an overabundance of pride and selfish habits. some probably don't even realize what they're doing until someone else lets them know. that's how wrapped up everyone is in themselves, and it's a shame when a good friend/bf/gf gets fucked over by a lying son of a bitch.

There's nothing like eavesdropping to show you that the world outside your head is different from the world inside your head.
--Thornton Wilder

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 11:23:30 GMT

day has went well..so far.

nature emailed to tell me that you suck.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 06:56:32 GMT

like a pyromantic fixture of thoughts dripping from your eyes and down your throat to only be seen by my heart for merely two seconds and you're gone..

i.want.your.beautiful.soul

Honestly

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 02:17:33 GMT

My life is not one of such importance it need be read by all of you in this little space of a journal. Although, I do believe if you feel the need to , you should come with the understanding that I am true to myself. There aren't any lies told through here. Oh but lord forgive me, if my life is so unexciting from lack of the fact I don't have affairs with men, and am so sexually confused I can't see three feet in front of me(not you Ciara). So if the need to trash talk me about all my downfalls/flaws is required to make you feel better about yourself then be my guest. I feel very confident in who I am, and where my life is going.. do you? Not all of us have the luxury of being so self-involved as all of those who found themselves talking so badly about me. You really do not know who I am. With school, work, and planning for a mission trip to Kenya.. I can't see where I would find the time to be all those horrible things you all have said about me. Even more ironic.. all of you are so much older than I am.. and it seems I'm the only one being mature about this. I'm going to say this and then I hope I never have to hear about it again because life is so fulfilling and to bury your head in someone's life to the point of being pathetic is such a waste.

I'm going to go paint at the park , and I hope everyone has a good night.

-trish

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 04:48:59 GMT

Jo-we had some fun didn't we? Don't let the worms get to you;)

I love the lights..

I got a new number by the way: 805-8528

what's the point..

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 04:59:27 GMT

there was a school shooting today.. not at my school but near by.. the boy shoots seven kids and then pulls the trigger out on himself.. i wish i could've told him I loved him.. right.. can't love just heal every damn thing?

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i've had enough of these unrestricted arguments.
it's worth much less than silence
to spend my time like this.
can't you just see through
this wall of noise to see that i don't want to fight.
not this time. not tonight. i'll try one more time.
i'm waking up again to the sound of you not here.
it's becoming all too familiar.
now all that's left are vacant screams at best.
now it's four am with no one listening.
i wish i said nothing.
i'll try one more time for you
with all that's left within me to believe
that we can make this through
because i love you
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Sat, 09 Apr 2005 11:55:07 GMT

tonight is Prom night! wooh hoo!! Nah really.. I went for the first two years.. I don't see the point in going again.

BUT

I bought a hot new dress.. and I am getting " all dolled" up and going to the Meleting Pot..(paraphrased: no date/no prom)

I have pictures coming soon..

and boy oh boy is y hair getting long

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 11:35:52 GMT

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	nine =)
your best quality is	people envy you
your worst quality is	you trust people too easily
this is because	you were born this way

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VIOLET

You surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. You often daydream. You prefer honesty in your relationships and belive strongly in your personal morals.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

update

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 21:32:04 GMT

my new email address is : spumspirosparo@hotmail.com
email me now! anywho.. i'm also working on a new lj..
a clean start for the spring.. a little something pretty

p.s. my hair is getting long..

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 11:09:00 GMT

girls are.. silly little drama queens that piss me off.. my friends especially.. I get along much better with the male gender..

QUIT ACTING LIKE YOUR FIVE!!!!